Believing In Dreams...Until...

Understood. You're Not Crazy. You're Seeing Quite Clearly.

That devastating emotional breakdown after November '24? A 'deja vu' of November '16...but more frightening? The exhaustion from possibly years...or decades...of activism with little to show...while encouraged to 'keep hope alive'...endlessly? One's withdrawal from most news and most things political? Looking around...sensing an overwhelming dread...a sense of helplessness, rage...and bewilderment?

That's not personal failure. That reaction is understandable...if not exceedingly appropriate. A result of accurate sensory, 'pattern-recognition'...a pattern which includes...one...all...having no idea what to do...now.

The elites...willing to harm some or all...have more power, capacity and open disdain for 'the law' now...encouraged to harm whoever, wherever, whenever...harm so as to extract 'more-than'. More power to harm than ever...all while 'we' have been a part of enabling and empowering that elites' harm of 'us'...hoping that maybe 'I' can get some crumbs of that 'more-than'...if 'I' keep 'my' head low...hoping to avoid the worst of the elites' harm of 'us' if 'I' can just prove that 'I' am loyal.

You know those 'crumbs'...i.e., that 'good job with good pay and benefits...where 'I' don't hurt anybody.'?

Our Collapse Into Bewildering Grief

After a very difficult number of years...you found yourself bursting into cursing or crying...off and on...for weeks...after November '24, didn't you?

Not just angry words and tears. Rather, the sudden deep, gut-wrenching screams and sobs of someone who had to confront...finally...that everything you had believed about how social-change can...and will...happen...had to confront how 'we' elected a deeply broken man-child...again...as if 'we' didn't know what broken male elites do to 'us'.

You know that cliche...that "things will get better"...that parents tell crying children...better almost inevitably...'just because'. You might know it in a quote about a 'long arc... bending towards justice'...but now one is forced to recognize...our belief in 'better' resulting from our doing so very little...was at best...simply, naively(?) wrong.

'We' came to believe...because as young children...we have no choice but to believe what adults assert to us...in our ignorance.

Does it feel like...all that we've been taught...has just been a 'feel-good' story...that avoided illuminating for us...just how broken all of this is?

Are we ready to recognize...how our 'feel good' stories that 'we' tell each other as adults...'we' simply assert to 'us'...in our self-deceit. How did we ever believe things get 'better'...doing as little as we can...'together'...to create that 'better' 'we' had been taught was coming...promised?

The Activist Autopsy

Yet...'you' have given years, maybe decades of your life, to help build 'a better world'. Meetings galore. Donated until it hurt. Canvassed until exhausted...with your feet blistered.

Called and wrote 'elected' representatives who never called back with 'real' answers. Worked for candidates...who 'sold and performed' far more words...than they did 'promised' deeds.

Marched until your voice was hoarse from chanting, believing that this time...with this cause...'things' would be different.
What's that deeply worn-out chant?
"THE PEOPLE...UNITED...WILL NEVER BE DEFEATED!"

...always chanted by a few enthusiastic...momentarily 'united' people who seemingly thought...'more' people...'enough' people...would magically join 'the' people...on the streets...'today'?

And now?

Far more kids are dead than when you started. The climate is far worse. Supposed 'democracy'...globally is even more fragile and unraveling, misleading and mislead...as are our 'masked and costumed' close ties with family and friends are more fragile and failing.

National leadership of 'Liberals'? They've actually worked to costume and mask...genocide...that the U.S. is still assisting in numerous ways...having failed their words 'sold' to Palestinians, Israelis, Arabs, the world and 'us'...almost 50 years ago...or...since the Declaration of Independence...
"We hold these words...to be self-evident...
that all men are created equal."

Except...'them'.

Funny how 'more' simply makes people empty shells of what evolved to be amazing social animals of amazing intelligence and capacity.

The Pattern Realization

You're exhausted from carrying the seemingly relational emptiness of so many family, friends and associates and their spoken indifference to so much intentional harm by males of power...and their abundant parasitic sycophants.

"I like...his policies."

You're not crazy for withdrawing...for avoiding reading or watching news. Your 'sense of things'...is correct. And compounding that 'sense'...is that you also have experienced...that not just things 'out there' are worse.

You've been forced to acknowledge that 'we' activists, basically have nothing to offer those being harmed, but more of the same empty 'united' chants of weak resistance and political 'tinkering' as policies and laws shred quickly and easily in the storm resulting from manipulated ignorance and fear.
i.e., 'we' have nothing 'better' to help 'us' get to 'better'...better for ourselves and 'all'...empty of insight and strategy beyond 'more' resistance.

"Register! Get out the vote!"...more petitions, more worthless calls, more candidates with empty slogan...and more screaming expletives if you accidentally catch some news. (please don't kick the screens!)

Stop for a moment...settle and breathe deep...and really think about...the numerous millennia...of our profound failure in ensuring the wellbeing of 'ourselves'...through ensuring the critical wellbeing of 'all'.

What if the problem was never whether 'you' were doing enough...
but simply that we've all been working to effect change knowing far too little, trained far too little, with too little understanding of 'me' in 'you' in 'we' and how that impacts and shapes this all so very powerfully?
i.e., 'we' never have educated ourselves to our socio-biology impacting our social needs and capacities in 'this historical moment' of 'us'...amongst 'all'...in this 'here'...this 'now'?

Does it make sense to you...that people who costume and mask genocide...just need a few more emails, phone calls, text messages, or petition signatures...to act 'for all'? They'd just never thought how killing kids might be...'dead' wrong?

Can you sense how with 'democratic nations' committing genocide in the 21st century...something about this entire social project...globally...is dead...dead...wrong?

Step back and look at where we are at and what we are doing.

If all that broken male elites needed to stop supporting savaging communities...were a few more calls and letters...can such people be expected to intercept their harms of lesser kinds...the constant harms of inequality...that they impose on 'us'...on 'all'?

Does it makes sense to 'scold' such deeply broken people...and then urge the rest of 'us' who are constantly manipulated and abused by these broken elites...for 'us' to believe the same political parties who mask and costume imposed harm, constantly...that such 'elected' people are on the voters' side' as if we are in some make-believe world ?

Does any of it make sense...to anybody...not involved in significantly deceiving themselves...so as to more easily deceive others...that this is a system 'we' can just 'wait'...and expect...'things will get better... because...'somebody is coming to fix this?'

If 'we' want 'better'...need 'better'...how do 'we' get there surrounded in our failures as 'we' are'...thus far...to obtain 'better'...consistent, persistent failures to get to 'better'....across millennia?

Why Your Body Is Breaking Down From Fighting Power

The exhaustion isn't just emotional. Challenging authority structures creates measurable biological damage. Your burnout has physiological roots that traditional activism ignores.

Authority Biological Costs

3-5 year life expectancy reduction from confronting power systems

Propaganda Density Analysis

50x propaganda increase creating systematic overwhelm across your lifetime

Sacrifice Ratio Mathematics

186:1 to 1,309,999:1 failure rates prove individual 'success' mythology is rigged

Your breakdown makes biological sense. These tools measure what traditional activism costs your body and why collaborative alternatives are necessary for both effectiveness and survival.

Why Individual Success Mythology Destroys Activists

Your burnout isn't personal failure - it's biological rebellion against systematic manipulation. The enforcer role costs and biological constraints explain why traditional activism exhausts collaborative capacity rather than building it.

Enforcer Role Biological Cost

3-5 year life expectancy reduction from constant authority confrontation

Biological 'More of Being'

Socio-biology evolved for collaborative sharing and expansion, not constraint

Your body is breaking down because it evolved for collaborative abundance...but systematic extraction forces individual competition for artificially scarce resources. These tools quantify the biological rebellion occurring in activist burnout.

Engaging 'Us' At Scale Needed

The modern 'communication-information tsunami' has made possible species-level collaborative awakening, learning and action. 'We' are no longer isolated by mountains, deserts, rivers and oceans, language and gods.

But we're isolated with inadequate training and encompassing strategy to meet the scale of our harm.

Let 'us' join together...networking and training together...that 'critical mass' of 'us' (3.5%+?)...doing what no generation has ever been able to do: learning new insights, skills and processes of 'us'...together...at the scale of harm that elites impose...dismantling that harm that now lives in 'us' as its imposed on 'us'.

Learn...at the scale of abused and manipulated populations and their complexity...with the tools and mirrors needed to understand ourselves within the social world defined by elites' harm...illuminating that promised 'better'...possible only with our needed, more powerfully informed, participation?

Come share and learn together...holding each other accountable to the comprehensive nature of 'our' sociality...'learning enough to do enough...at the level of 'our' harm'. Those 'missing pieces in our understanding' that can finally illuminate our way out of millennia-old patterns of imposed harm that 'we' have grown to accept...harm imposed so that a very few males...might have...'more-than' most everybody...combined.

Breathe. Reflect.

Yes...I know...the above is a glaring, large mirror. 'We' so badly want to look and see 'them'...not 'us'...not 'me'. Don't interpret the glaring nature of 'our' seemingly overwhelming brokenness as an excuse for doing nothing. 'We'...as a species...must learn every single thing that we do...and are!All that our dysfunctions point to...is how horribly ineffective has been our 'training' to ensure that 'we' can live the dreams that 'we' breathe...amongst ourselves.

Before continuing...you might benefit by pausing for a moment...allowing your body to settle...
pulling air deep into your lungs...and breathing out.

Ask yourself:
What part of this intentional harming...and 'my' participation…have I known of 'me'...of 'we'...
but never admitted aloud...to anyone...myself included? Multiply that silence...'your' silence...by billions.

Ready To See Who We Are In Our Social Dysfunctions?

Your breakdown wasn't...and isn't...'personal'. You were experiencing the 'discombobulation' occurring globally as the species-wide systems designed around too many males chasing "more-than"...at any social cost that their desperate chase might impose...such males have run out of needed masks and costumes that helped make them appear as if 'very fine people'...to quote one of those very, very broken, damaged men-children.

And so...exhausted and discombobulated...are you ready to see how widespread this brokenness actually is...and how it lives in 'us'...and what we can do to effectively address it...finally?